Snow revelation

Nearly ten years ago in April 2008 there was a freak snow blizzard in the UK. It was the middle of spring so it was not supposed to happen.

The snow had a powerful affect on me and changed my life. I had time off from my work so  I intended to meet up with friends and go out for fun. What happened was I was forced to stay at home. While I was at home I looked at the snow and sat down and was lost in thought. At some point I questioned the morals of eating meat and the cruelty that may be involved.

On that day I became a vegetarian. I have been a vegetarian ever since then nearly ten years on. My vegtable based diet has caused my body to age in a different way. I have the blood pressure of a teenager and the health of a man half my age. If I continued to eat meat, my health would be very different.

Now it is March 2018 and I have been at home for a while to avoid the snow. A storm from Portugal collided with cold air from Russia above my country so it has been snowing non stop for 2 days.

I was thinking about the affects that the background music from the TV show "how it is made" and how it makes me energised and changes my mood. I found out that it is very similar to the background music from Sonic the Hedgehog computer game. I realised that the reason the music was making me energised was because it was tapping into a mental state left behind when I was a child. The music from the computer game was changing my mood and making me feel I want to win and struggle to overcome the challenge. The 16 bit lyric free beat of the music was changing my mood into an energised proactive state.

From this day I will use music to put my mind into the right gear. If I feel tired I will play "Sonic the Hedgehog" computer game music. If I feel sad I will play "super hang on" music. If I need energy I will play Mario Cart music.

The snow caused me to become a vegetarian and now it was caused me to become a man that controls his mood with music by forcing me to be still and think deeply. Body and mind are changed. I can only thank God for inspiration and thought. Let my gratitude flow like a river of Gold and silver and a valley of light. May my light shine like a lantern in the cave where no darkness can stay.

my wall

Today I have learned that there are very few things that you can do that won't get a pessimistic reaction but there is something you can do about it.

When I was much younger I had very little respect from other people because I didn't have a normal development. I was either transparent or ridiculed. I hated going to school. I was a different person and looked at the world differently to others and paid a heavy price for being myself. I had very little respect from other people. I carried a large amount of anger inside me for so long. In a small way, I felt I could relate to the columbine shooter that killed his class mates because being ostracized for being different is very painful and demoralizing. If you are socially ostracized and disrespected by others for a long time you can become a bitter and hateful person as you age.

I have started to deal with this problem, I have unfriended 2 people on Facebook today because I feel they don't respect me and I have also vowed to use the report abuse button when I am trolled without interacting with the person. If someone trolls me, they are wasting their time because I won't respond to them and I will instantly block them. I am slowly blocking negative and pessimistic people in my life. I am also determined to avoid conversation with people that are rude and negative. I will save all my social time for positive, respectful and tolerant individuals.

Me and President Trump are living a parallel life because I am building a social wall to keep negative people out of my Face. Trump is building a wall to keep out illegal immigrants. Somehow, I feel my wall will bring a better outcome than Trump's wall.

I admire the way Donald sneers the press because they can be very nasty, I remember when the Newspapers called Micheal Jackson "Wako Jacko", that is so rude and disrespectful. It is nice to have a guy with a big ego being rude back to them. Attitude isn't always such a bad thing.

I am grateful for all the good things in my life and a working mind appreciates everything.