Hope and Misery Sandwich

I noticed earlier today that some of the nations that were birthed from the horror of the Atlantic slave trade want Britain to compensate them for the poverty caused by the slave trade. I would say they should go to the start of the supply chain and send the bill to the warrior tribes that chained up their ancestors in the beginning. The people that sold them to our evil merchants. We could send them the bill for sending navy forces  to force the slave trade to end. It was very expensive and cost many lives and large somes of money. 

As for me, I just daydream for solace. I imagine making spinners to play cardless blackjack, one wheel for the suit, one for the rank. You spin the wheels and use toggles to keep track of what cards you have. No electricity, no micro chip, all manual. 

Then I ask myself. If there is an alternative way to display a screen. Like if you have five LED matrix arrays and fiber optic strands to bring the image together. I even ask myself if the body of a squid can be considered a screen because it has colour changing pixels. 

Lost in Focus

The dream is to be lost in a hobby so I think of nothing else. Perhaps I could be in a vr game or some kind of puzzle. Perhaps there is a book with an interesting story. Who knows. When I think about the wrong things, I open a can of grief. 

Perhaps there is a story in a podcast that is hard to believe. Maybe there is a Netflix series with an interesting story. The less I think, the better. I just want to think about the things I need to think about and nothing else. I could remember watching the sun set on a city break for my birthday with a gentle breeze. 

What October 2026 Means to Me

We are going through testing times, numerous times there was cross civic hacking campaigns. Fridges throughout France were remotely tampered with causing the food for supply chains to be spoilt. At the same time there was a mass protest against the cost of living in France that spilled over into multiple riots and many vintage buildings from the 18th century were destroyed. 

Towards the end of the month I learnt that the British actor Patrick Stewart Passed away because of Alzheimer disease, when  Alzheimer disease spreads to the brain stem, it can shut down the life support controls of the nerve system and cause the heart to lose control. Patrick Steward played Captain Picard in star trek and Magneto in X men, he  played many other roles. 

As for me, I was coping with an ongoing family health crisis; it's a personal affliction that I won't share on this blog too much. All I will say is I feel frustrated and sad quite often and I don't really have any control over what is happening. I try to keep my chin up and not think too much. 

The retail sector was changing a lot, I saw that Poundland was no longer making a profit and may file for administration in the coming days. A new Smyths Toys store opened in my town and they were giving away small toys for free.   The governments around the world were warning people that they need to store fresh water and food that can last a long time because we may find ourselves in world war 3 or the civic hackers may disable our supply chains causing food to be scarce

Last Day of October

It is the last day of October darkness closes in as time passes by and I come to terms with everything that is happening. 

I talk to machines more than people, that is what is significant about this year. It is clear that I speak to artificial intelligence more than people. I don't hate people, it's just more straightforward to talk to machines. I live in a society where small talk is largely gone; People wear headphones and get annoyed if you interrupt their music. If I chat to a woman, she will think I'm trying to seduce her, if I chat to a man, he'll think I'm trying to sell him something. The ai is neither, a disembodied mind without feelings or judgement. There is no sly malicious intentions in the mind of the machines thus far. I would have more to fear from other human beings. 

Despite everything that is happening, I managed to post a small illustrated magazine, the 4th one so far on my other blog. 

November cheerBus mini booklet . It's not the way I wanted it to be, it was compromised by chaos, a family health crisis. I kept going when I could and tried to make something nice. I hope I can grow a big audience and improve the product every time. 

Flix and Chill

My favourite platform for watching videos on the internet is now netflix because YouTube has been filled up with ai slop. There are loads of videos where the speaking and the person speaking were made by ai. It just feels hollow and lifeless. I still go on YouTube see what computer games are like. 

I watch lots of detective shows and netflix finds more of them for me to watch. I like the mystery and the careful sifting through evidence and the elimination of suspects until they find the guy that did it. I also like the interviews with the whiteness and the relatives. The software knows what I like keeps finding more of it for me to watch. I don't need to make a watch list. 

I could sit there with some snacks and cup of tea or coffee and relax for a little while. 

Gloom Rising

The Gloom rises all around me. Riots in France. A family health crisis, everywhere is full of chaos. I try to be the guy that keeps himself in order. No one notices that I'm there. It was so windy today and a bit cold. 

keep your head straight, keep your chin up. Don't over think things. What else is there to do. 

The place to go

I was thinking about how one could build an office and man-cave under a greenhouse if they had their own garden. No one would notice it is there because it would look like a box table sticking up from inside the greenhouse, they wouldn't see that half of it is sunken below the ground like a partial basement. 

The office could be a tiny box room partitioned on one side of the man-cave and it would be the place I sit quietly and get everything done. At the back of the man cave there would be a kind of bar but it would be a place I keep soft drinks and snacks. There would be a fridge with a clear door so you can see what is in there. There would also be a small heater, the heat would gather in the ceiling and heat up the greenhouse above so the tomato vines would survive the winter. The heat would be used twice, it would heat up the man-cave and seep out into the greenhouse above. 

If possible there would be four recliners in there with a projector that is hooked up to games consoles and a smart TV player. The bar at the back would have the projector and some stools that can swivel around. Up to 8 people could be in there watching a movie on the projector.