What September 2026 Means to Me

September 26 was quite difficult, I won't say why. All I will say is there was a health crisis involving someone close to me, I will say nothing else. A doorway opened to a hell Scape that wiped out all the peace left inside me. It was a bit too much. We are here for a short time and then it is over. I wrestled with my mind to think less and try to be absent from the chaos. What else can I do? 

As time passed by, the world continued to prove people can't live in peace. It was on the last day of the month a terrorist tried to cause to plane to crash into Israel. 

May I stay humble and not look at others and think I'm better than anyone else. If that thought ever emerges, may I remember the bad deeds I did throughout my life. Everything that merits shame will remind me I'm just a speck, I little human being amongst other specks that is just here for a short time. May the day I was born just be a day to rest and take a short break. Everything that merits my shame will remind me I'm not good, I'm just man. A man trying not to overthink and be at peace. 

Health Crisis

We rely on many small parts to stay alive and well, in some cases the structural integrity of a wafer thin membrane can make a difference between being alive or passing away. I try to make a difference every day because there isn't much to do, we just exist.

What else can I do? I just do my best to keep my chin up. I have nothing to say. Make every day count because you don't know when it is your last.

Semi Graphics

I was looking on the unicode website and saw they had a character set that is used to depict basic graphics. It is a set of characters that are used to depict basic lines and shapes. You could use it to make a basic text based game with graphics. That would be very interesting. I wonder if those characters would work the same on all devices. You could port the game over to almost anything if they all worked the same. 

That can hold a person together, knowing that he could just create a cool little game if they put their mind to it and distribute it. You could have a text based game with some still images as well. A little dungeon crawler that is fun to play and very simple to run.

Where Does It Go

I was wondering how they reconcile the paradox with the event horizon from a black hole. If an object passed across the event horizon, time would stop for that object, yet it falls into the black hole. From our point of view the object would stop moving. From the objects point of view, the universe would quickly age and pass away before it entered the hole itself. 

I recently learned that the particles called nutrinas would be trapped by the event horizon. They don't  interact with gravity but they follow the trajectory of space which is warped by the black holes mass. I would imagine they would accumulate and swirl around the inside of the event horizon and fall down into the centre. I have no idea what is happening in there. 

There is a lot of strange things out there. A lot of very strange things. Things I don't really understand. My existence is strange on its own. 

Just Nothing

Sometimes there is nothing, nothing to talk about. Perhaps I can make up a new card game. something unique like Uno or Double. What else can I think of. 

I learnt the other day that the new Prime Minister's Father passed away because of Alzheimer's disease. A disease where your memory deteriorates. I didn't understand how it can cause your death. I looked it up and found that it eventually spreads to the brain stem and stops the essential body functions like heart beats and Breathing. 

The person that cures Alzheimer's disease would be a great hero in the world and would also cure glaucoma because it is the same faulty protein that that causes both conditions. It's an eye condition. 

Think Less

It's true that overthinking is bad but these days just normal thinking can land you in an empty pit. To stay sane we need to think less and only think when we need to. I just concentrate on what I am doing and then I set time aside for leisure, I play computer games. 

When I was a young man I watched the movie body snatchers, in the movie humans were being replaced by imitation beings that bear their appearance. The replacement beings had no feelings and were very robotic. I feel like there is an element of that in our society now. People are slowly being turned into psychopaths, if someone annoys them, they will try to get them fired from their job. They would ruin someones life because they are spiteful and find something annoying about the person.

As the World Falls Down

I feel like something isn't quite right, everything's changing. Young people frivolously swearing, winters without frost, summers without rain, multiple leader changes, inflation and unrest everywhere. What can I do, I just keep my mind and my hands busy. 

I was thinking about dice earlier, if you had a device that randomly picks numbers between 1 and 6, would it still be a dice? If you had a spinner with a small viewing  window that lands on one of a series of numbers between 1 and 6, would that be a dice? Even if you had a bead that fell into one of 6 random trays, would that still be a dice? 

I look forward to when I can finally get hold of the roguecraftDX game, it keeps selling out; I sense it would be like crystal defender for me, a game I would play over and over again after the game was over. What else can I do? I just stay busy and keep my mind occupied.