Bus Day

Jacob, my son. 

I recently learned that one of the bus companies where we live will close down their depot. This means the routes they run will stop or be replaced by the other major operator in our area. I was surprised this is happening; they claim the depot was making a loss. I think the other company had the right idea. They would use small vans as buses during off peak times to save on fuel and stuff like that. They also ran an airport service so they would get customers from nearby towns and the edge of London in Uxbridge. 

I think we will have virtual reality in our home at some point this year. I have played  golf in virtual reality on other people's headsets. If they make a walking device that works with it, you go for a walk by the coast for a while without leaving your home. Perhaps when you're an adult, virtual reality would be a health product, something that promotes walking. You could walk through museums and other worlds while you're still in a room. 

Tomorrow Robins will sing

A famous song I can relate to is 'Tomorrow Robins Will Sing' by Steve Wonder, I think the song is trying to say things will improve in the near future. You can have a bad day or bad month but one day everything will be fine. 

A few thoughts come to mind this month are, If there was a cat in my house and I was suddenly paralysed, would the cat eat me while I'm still alive?

I was wondering what it would be like to build a large shed in the garden and turn the inside of the shed into a man-cave complete with bar, recliners and even projector.

Northern Lights and Stuff

The Arora borealis was visible in Britain a few days ago. There was a purple and green smears in the sky, it looked out of place and a bit bizarre. 

Shortly before we had the northern lights, Mc Donald's were adding miniature Uno playing card decks to their happy meals. My 5 year old isn't interested in that game but it's fun for all ages, even adults; I thought it was a good idea. Uno is a straight forward game to play, you are given 5 cards from a shuffled deck, one card is placed facing up on the table and each player has to find a card  that is related to the card on the table, the number, colour or icon can be used. The goal of the game is to lose all your cards before the other players. It's a bit like dominos. Your card becomes the card on the table if it is related to the target card. 

These days I order my food with an app on my phone and I can use a table number as a reference. One thing all fast food restaurants have in common is their ice cream machine stops working often.  I don't know why. Perhaps the moving parts overheat or something like that. 

The Billy-of-Time

I imagined being the captain and sole crew member of a solar blimp air ship thing called the Billy-of-Time. The world is full of tosh these days. There is loads of dogma spurting out of collages and protesting  and the world is at loggerheads but the Billy-of-Time is off the grid and away from it all floating above the Pacific ocean in the middle of nowhere. 

The hot air blimp would work by using mirrors that focus the sun's rays onto black pipes, the pipes would get hot and vent out hot air that flows into balloon canopies. The trouble is it would go down at night. The captain wants to stay airborne indefinitely. He would get water from clouds and irrigate fruiting plants on his ship. He would sleep in a hammock because it is light. The net weight of the whole vehicle would be an issue. The captain of the ship would try and see if different sand particles can store heat during the night. He would also dry out his poop at he far end of the blimp and burn the poop to get more time in the air. Plus the mirror arms would have flaps below them that tilt when there is a gust of wind. After all those innovations, there is no hope of staying airborne, every morning he would wake up and the vehicle is floating on the ocean, then it it would start to rise again as the sun heats up the vents. The crew man captain never quits, he tries to figure out a way to stay in the air. Perhaps he could sand down the shacks below deck to make the vehicle  lighter. 

There would be some solar panels on the blimp to get electricity, he has a games console and plays computer games. At night before the blimp goes down he would lay down on the top deck and look at the stars in the sky and wonder what is happening out there in deep space.  

Floating in the air away from it all. No dogma, no anger, no disrespect. Just a drive to float away.  The Billy-of-Time, a ship in the sky that will never be. Only in the mind of blogger with a time for a day dream as he waits to sleep. 

Day Dream : Billy of Time

If you lay in bed and can't sleep just day dream. I was day dreaming about a giant hot air Balloon called Billy of time. 

It has many mirrors that focus sunlight onto tanks , the tanks get very hot and cause an envelope to inflate. The 3 inflated balloons would lift the vehicle up. The vehicle would have some shacks suspended by ropes. 

Is it a village, a blimp, a balloon or a plane? no it is Billy of time, a happy hot air balloon that is powered by solar energy. The captain of the vehicle wants to keep it airborne indefinitely because he is sick of society. He wants to live off the grid and grow his own food up there in the sky. 

What April 2024 Means To Me

Throughout April I thought this may was going to be a general election but I was wrong because they had a snap election in December 5 years ago so the new general election will be later this year. There are still elections on may but they're for the mayors and commissioners. 

It was always cloudy this month and very dark. The Israelis are still trying to rescue their hostages and people are still protesting about the conflict. They're ignoring all the other conflicts in the world, even the ones that have more casualties, lots of selective outrage. In the middle of the month there was a direct exchange of missile fire between Israel and Iran. It started when Israel accidentally hit the Iranian embassy in Damascus city in Syria. 

I managed to get a good deal on a Nintendo switch and was playing Red Dead Redemption throughout the month. It is an old game and they ported it over to the console the way it is; to me it is a new game because I never played it. I missed out on playing a lot of the 3rd person open world quest type games from the previous decade. I have no regrets with the way I use my down time, life is too short to care. A young boy was killed by a maniac with a sword the other day.  I feel pity for the boy and his family. Life is short and it can be shorter than you think. That is why I try to enjoy my down time. 

Here Comes May

It is may tomorrow; I think the time stamp in this blog is set to an American time zone. Here in Britain we're preparing for general elections. I like my local MP because he works as a cabinet minister but he still makes time to respond to his constituents. I know this because I reached out to contact him before. I thought it would be a good idea to make some of the back roads one way so the lane lost could be used for parking and bike lanes; he passed the information over to the council and followed up and contacted me later to inform me what they thought, then he offered  to meet me in person. To me that merits another term. The political party he is in now is in power but they're unpopular at the moment. If my local MP is replaced, I could try to contact the new MP with the same message and see if he is equally diligent. 

I think all politicians are forced to lie. Every policy they make can be vetoed by the house of lords and opposition; even the reality of funding can cause them to go back on their words but they act like they're certain their plans will succeed. If they didn't, no one would vote for them. Humans judge superficial things like confidence and dress-code. 

I was playing Red Dead redemption throughout April. It's definitely not a game for kids, you witness violent cruelty too often. It's an interesting game, the story unfolds bit by bit. Now I'm left with questions like why did Edgar Ross kill John at the end of the game after he helped him get all the gang members. I'm guessing he knew too much and the people at the top wanted him dead. I like the way you can continue playing the game after you finished the main missions as the son of John Marsden, Jack Marsden and they look alike. You can even complete the less important stranger missions that John Marsden didn't finish. A true open world game. 

Special Stations

The Nearest part of London to my town is Uxbridge. If London was a clock face, Uxbridge would be the number 10. It is also the location of what I call a special station because you can get a train from two different train lines going in the same direction from the same platform. 

Uxbridge is a special station because you can get a Piccadilly train or a metropolitan line train from the same place. 

Finchley road is a special station because the Jubilee and Metropolitan trains going in the same direction stop at the same platform island, the eastbound metropolitan and jubilee trains share and platform and so do the west bound ones; you can change lines without walking much. 

The same is true of Ealing common, you can step off a Piccadilly train and stay on the same platform and catch a district line train from the same platform. Changing lines without walking. The district line goes to Barking, Woof. Barking station has commuter trains to Southend-on-sea. 

kings Cross is a very special station, you can get three different lines from the same platform, plus down the escalators are platforms to several other lines, plus you can get commuter trains upstairs or take a train to France if you walk across to St Pancras next door. 

Mile end is also useful, you can get to the central line or Hammersmith or District and they're side by side. 

Birth Day

Jacob, my son.  

It was around the time of your birthday that I learned Iran fired missiles at Israel because they hit the Iranian embassy in Seria. Shortly after, Israel fired missiles back at Iran. I hope the two nations can stop fighting and be at peace in the near future.

I don't think about it much, I just think about life and death and my own issues. I only think about it when it pops up on the news. 

Got To Be There

It was my son's birthday the other day and some friends and family came over that had not seen my bar. They said Alan, is that a Bar in your sitting room. I said yes it is. They didn't ask why; it's because I want to create a man cave, a little world where I close the door and for a short time the rest of the world doesn't exist. It is a place where I can be a big kid and play games and not think very much. 

The only part of my man cave that exists is the bar with a 100 litre fish tank and comfy stools. 

One day I could buy recliners, 4 of them and bring people there to play computer games. 

At the moment you can sit at the bar, have a tea or coffee and look at the fish swimming around not thinking very much, just existing, breathing. T

Thinking less helps, overthinking makes you sad. 

Iran shoots at Israel

During April, Israel bombed several targets in Syria, they hit the Iranian embassy during the raid. On the 13th of April Iran retaliated and fired missiles at the Israeli base that launched the attack. This changes everything because now leaders will think like ordinary people, they will ask themselves is it worth it when they want to attack another nation. Iran has demonstrated they can shoot missiles through defence systems. Their missiles do lots of interesting tricks, they fragment into several missiles and have mini bombs and things like that. 

This changes everything, suppose they fired 30 missiles at an aircraft carrier ship. The ship shot down 29 missiles but one got through, the one missile that got through destroys the whole ship and all the aircraft parked on it and the crew. The outcome would be the same as if they let all the 30 missiles through; the ship is destroyed and all the hardware and staff. Billions of dollars worth of military hardware destroyed and all the crew are dead.  

I think many nations are going to be very careful what they say and do. They need to think about what they're doing. 

I'm an ordinary man, from the beginning I never wanted war. No one wants war, especially ordinary people like myself that doesn't have a large ego. 

Middle of April

It is the middle of April and the end of a political term here in Britain. Every 5 years during the first week of May we have a general election. 

I don't think about it much. I just make sure the person I'm voting for is ready to listen and sees my point of view a bit, I think it is ok if they have a different view to me sometimes. I think all politicians have to lie, they're not really sure their policies will be successful but they have to pretend to be confident about it, otherwise no one would vote for them. 

I have my coffee in the morning, then in the middle of the day I have my tea. Later when the work is done, I settle down, I watch a documentary or play computer games. I recall my teachers telling me I would be through with computer games by the time I was in my mid 30s. They're wrong. I still like to play computer games like a big kid. I still like to play card games on my phone and open world quest games on the TV. 

Titan Coastline

I mentioned earlier in this blog that there is a giant moon going around Saturn called Titan, it is very unusual because it has a thick atmosphere and terrain similar to Earth. It has mountains, valleys, dunes, coastlines, oceans and lakes. It even rains. 

I imagined standing on a beach on titan with a special space suit that stops me freezing to death. It would look like a beach on earth but everything would have a yellow tint to it because the atmosphere is yellowish. The sea isn't water, it is liquid methane, there is no oxygen to make it burn so it is a stable liquid on that moon. I think it would also be quite dark there, the daytime would look like early dawn. 

Just a thought. 

Flooding

In recent days the river where I live had overflowed and caused parts of the nearby park to be flooded slightly. Things are starting to settle down a bit now. The skies are clearing up and the days are getting a bit longer. 

My thoughts now are to get a steady rythm and make some progress. To find ways make life simpler. Clarity and progress are on the horizon. I would do my best then try to think about nothing. To think about something that has nothing to do with me when I'm not busy. 

The best way to do that is be preoccupied with reading, browsing and playing computer games. If it is the end of the day and there is nothing to do, play computer games. 

The event that is approaching now is the may  general elections. I have a feeling Labour are going to win the elections this year. I like my local MP though, I try not to vote for parties, I just make sure the local guy sees my point of view. If you do that then your job is done. 

Solar Eclipse

There was a solar eclipse yesterday above USA and parts of Mexico, I didn't think much of it. The eclipse is just the shadow of the moon moving across the Earth's surface and happens quite often somewhere on Earth. I don't think it is sending a message from God or anything like that. 

When I think of the eclipse I think of Titan, the second Largest moon in the Solar system. It has a thick atmosphere and appears to be twice the size of the moon but it not quite twice the mass though.

It is quite interesting because it isn't the biggest moon in the solar system but it has an atmosphere that is thicker than earth's. It also has liquid methane oceans and coastlines and mountains. I often wonder why Ganymede is much bigger than Titan but it has a thin atmosphere. 

Wikipedia: Titan

  

New Scottish Law

I saw on the news that the Scottish parliament passed a new hate crime law. I don't think it will make much difference to Scottish society though; most of the offences listed in the new law were already illegal anyway. 

It wasn't brought about by the current prime minister, they published the law about 3 years ago but they left time for the whole nation to come to terms with the changes I think. 

Where would I fit into this? I don't like being called white because my skin is beige like a cashew nut. I am white but I don't like being called white because my personality is more important to me than my ethnicity. If someone walked up to me and said "hello white man", I would wonder why they need to mention that I'm white, then I would think actually, I'm beige, not white. Then I would think my whiteness is irrelevant to my character anyway. You can call me al I. Would say. 

I think age comes under that law, you can mistreat people because of their age and also their gender. 

Searching for stuff

In Space, NASA is searching for ways to stop people from getting bad health because of space travel. Apparently being in space is very unhealthy. The lack of gravity causes bones and muscles to waste away and every part of the body is weakened by microgravity. Fluids are forced up to the head because we're designed to resist gravity. 

I think that is the main reason the International Space Station exists. The ISS is trying to find ways to keep astronauts healthy for long periods in space. I remember reading of some other experiments they were trying, they wanted to see how certain crystals grow in the absence of gravity. 

The pictures of crews always seem awkward like they're trying to keep themselves steady. It's not just NASA that is searching for something. Down here on earth, ordinary people like myself are always searching for deals. I search for short break deals, deals on used electric cars and deals on ordinary items. 

I look through all the places we can go and the hotel tariffs and see if they change for different dates and places. Then I remember places I have already been. 

I think if you had an electric car you would want to change your energy tariff so there is a time window when the electricity is cheaper so you can charge up your car without spending too much money. Perhaps there would be a 5 hour time window when your electricity is only 10 p per kilowatt-hour and it would be cheaper to heat your house with electric heaters during that time. 

I'm just amazed how quickly electric cars devalue over a short time, car gaint was selling fairly new cars for about one third of their original price. I was just looking at them the other day. 

I-hab Artemis

It's quite possible in the near future Artemis will become as familiar to households as the Apollo missions were in the '70s. I recently learned that part of the Artemis missions will involve building a moon space station that orbits the moon permanently. As far as I know the first habitation module will be sent by Artemis 4 and it will be called I-hab. Space X will be involved in the construction of the space station as well. 

The question I still have is how will they cope with deep space radiation? The moon is outside of the Earth's powerful magnetic field so it will have no protection from high speed particles shooting out of the sun and other stars. I was reading the NASA blogs and noticed they didn't mention much about it at all. A solar flare from the sun could cause the death of the whole crew in a matter of hours. The current space station is inside earth's powerful magnetic field so it is already shielded from deep space radiation. 

What will they do? I sense it won't end well. I hope I'm wrong. 

What March 2024 Means to me

March was different this year, there was so much rain that the river where I live had become completely saturated, it was filled to the brim and could barely take anymore water without overflowing. The event that stood out this month was learning that the princes of Wales received treatment for cancer. We never knew she had cancer; I thought it was only the king that had it. Cancer is caused by cancer cells, cells that are faulty and keep dividing and duplicating themselves until they kill the surrounding tissues. Your immune system usually kills cancer cells but on rare occasions, the immune cells can't detect that the cells are faulty. Cancer causes death when it spreads to other parts of the body and causes organ failure. 

A bit later in the month I learned that a giant multimillion tonne cargo ship had lost power and drifted into a major bridge in Baltimore Harbour, a major sea port in the USA. The bridge instantly toppled over. I couldn't help but think of a few paradoxes related to the accident. I wondered what would happen if a hammer that can't be stopped struck and object that can't be moved. Then I thought if there is a big bang that spurted out the universe, there must be a big detonator to set it off. Then I was wondering if there is a big detonator, what made the detonator exist? It probably wouldn't look like a plunger that you push down though. Then I remembered the suiz canal shipping disaster. A giant cargo ship got blown by the wind and wedged itself into the sides of the canal back in march 2021.

It was in march 2021 that the Suiz canal was blocked by a cargo ship. Now the flow of goods over a bridge was cut off by another shipping disaster because the bridge In Baltimore was toppled over in march 2024. The world seems to have an invisible 3 year clockwork to it or I make connections where they don't belong. 

Baltimore Bridge Disaster

Yesterday I learned that a 280 million tonne cargo ship lost power and crashed into Baltimore Bridge causing it to topple into the sea. Baltimore is a large port city in-between Washington and Virginia. It is the American equivalent to Portsmouth here in Britain. 

You can't stop a 280 million tonne cargo ship without engine power or significant distance unfortunately. It was just before I learned of the Baltimore Bridge Crash that I was thinking about EVs. 

Many electric cars can store more than 35 KWH(kilowatt-hours), my home uses about 5 KWH every day so electric car batteries could power my home for a whole week or more; to me that is astonishing, I never imagined they would make batteries that could store enough energy to power your house for weeks. Perhaps it would be normal to plug cars into a meter and power your house when there is a power cut. 

Last week of March

This is the last week of March, things are warming up a bit. The River in my town has reached the limits of its capacity, it can't carry any more water without overflowing. It has been like that for some days now. 

I was thinking, if there is a big bang that spurted out all matter in the universe, wouldn't there need to be a big detonator. In this world, every explosion has a trigger that caused it to happen. Those linear plunger ones that you push down comes to mind. You push the plunger down and it generates an electric charge, the charge runs across the explosive material and causes a chain reaction that leads to an explosion. 

Then I was thinking of a scenario where you're wearing roller skates and you have a dog on a leash pulling you along. Is that a vehicle? How would you define the vehicle? Dog and Skates? 

Then I was thinking what would happen if you kept zooming into an atom, you would see the quarks and other sub atomic particles that make it but then what? What are the sub atomic particles made of and all the smaller particles that make up those. 

Cancer in the royal Family

Recently at the tail end of winter and start of Spring 2024,  I learned that the Royal Family are dealing with cancer. Both King Charles the 3rd and the princes of Wales, Kate Middleton have cancer. The disease can affect anyone at any time. 

Cancer is caused by cancer cells, cells that are faulty and can't stop diving. The cancer cells cause the nearby tissues to die because they overcrowd the space and use up all the oxygen and glucose. Eventually if the cells are able to spread they would cause organ failure.

I try to make every day count because one day I will die like everyone else. No human I'm aware of has lived past 150 years of age. Even if it was normal to live beyond 200 years, that isn't a long time. 

Be Frank

In the middle of the '90s, John Major the prime minister privatised Britain's railways. The train network for a every region was fragmented into a separate private railway. Margaret Thatcher the previous prime minister thought it was a very bad idea to do that. I agree. 

The railway companies have to be honest but they don't need to be frank. If there is a way for you to save money on your journey, they won't tell you. 

If you're going from High Wycombe to Marylebone, you can get off the train at south Ruislip and tap into the oyster TFL (transport for London) network and only pay about £3.50 off peak, even if you're getting a Chiltern train. They won't tell you that, they'll let you buy a premium priced network ticket for the whole journey.  It's cheaper to buy ticket to south Ruislip and catch another train from the same platform after you have tapped into the TFL network. Private companies are there to make money. 

Helter Skelter Spring

It is true Spring now, the word for the season and the object called a spring are spelled the same and sound the same so when I think of spring time, I think of things that have a helix shape as well. I was remembering riding the helter Skelter at the fair ground. I thought it was clever because they realised that the stiff fibers on a coir-Matt has very little friction when it is placed on a metallic surface or on wood. The coir-matt allowed you to go down a shallow prolonged slide that spirals downwards. Without the coir-matt the slide wouldn't work because the slope angle was too shallow. 

This spring is the first time I tried the Kombucha drink. It is a tea mixed with juice and live bacteria. The bacteria are friendly and the ones that are able to pass through your stomach alive start to live in your intestines and help your guts. You could say it has lasting health benefits. Since I took the drink I have been farting a bit less than normal. 

British Train Inconsistencies

I noticed the pricing on rail tickets in the UK are inconsistent. I'll give you an example..

The distance between Barking and Southend, and the distance between High Wycombe and Marylebone is roughly 50 km for both journeys but the rail providers charge different prices for off peak trips. 

A C2C train from Barking station to Southend central is £8.50, that is about 15p per kilometre. A trip from High Wycombe to Marylebone is more expensive. 

A journey of a similar distance, 50km is more expensive on the Chilterns railway, it costs about 26p per kilometre. It is so uncompetitive that it is cheaper to take an Uber if you have 4 passengers. 

If you have 4 passengers, the journey will cost £11.48 per person because the whole car ride is £45.93

My question is why? Why is it cheaper to travel 50 km in the C2C train network then the children railways? Is it because the Chiltern railways still use diesel trains? Is it because there are two train lines that go to Southend so they face more competition? I don't know the answer, I only know that every rail network has different prices for equivalent distances. 

Two Quests

It would be nice to get to a stage where I can sit down and play computer games and play learning audio at the same time. I would be on two quests, a quest on a 3rd person adventure game on my  Nintendo and a quest to learn Spanish. 

If someone asked me what I'm doing, I would say I'm learning Spanish. I have a learn in your car audio in my Amazon music library. I can make my smart speaker play the audio.  

The time wouldn't be wasted because I enjoy the time and I'm learning Spanish at the same time. Some people go on holiday and get drunk because they want to think less but I just want happy thoughts. I want to turn the Sod so my thoughts are a quest to learn and play. 

Happy thoughts. 

London Tourism Advice

I'm no stranger to London and Easter is around the corner, I thought I should share some advice to tourists visiting London. 

Stay at the edge of the city, the hotels are cheaper there. I would recommend Uxbridge. If London was a clock face, Uxbridge would be where the number 10 is. There is a hotel next to the train station and the station has two lines that branch off from it. The chain hotels don't check or care how many people are in a room so you can bring inflatable mattresses and bring a whole family to one double room. 

If London was a clock face, Heathrow airport would be a polca dot beyond the clock face next to the number 9 so there are several buses that go from Heathrow to Uxbridge, the Carousel 102 to high Wycombe passes through Uxbridge. 

If you did stay at Uxbridge, there are several perks that come with the train station, both the Piccadilly and Metropolitan lines stop at that station. 

If you stay on the metropolitan line and get off at Finchley road, you can get a Jubilee train from the same platform because jubilee and metropolitan line trains share a platform and go in the same direction. The Jubilee line stops at some key points on the river, by the clock tower with the big Ben bell in it and near London eye. The Jubilee line also stops at the Greenwich ("gren itch") peninsula. Most the interesting stuff is near the river, even Trafalgar Square is a 15 minute walk from the river Thames ("tems"). The Piccadilly line goes to most the important places, Leicester Square, Piccadilly Circus and places like that. 

Play Away from Harm

I think girls self harm themselves more than boys because more boys play computer games and card games. Society has poisoned young people's minds so they think they need superficial things to have a good status in society. They have to dress well, have certain possessions or have a certain attainment. Nothing good comes from thinking that way, If a young person feels like they're worthless, they'll hurt themselves to feel better. I accept society is like that so at least I have to replace my worn out clothes. To be a part of this society is like walking through a dark stinky swamp. We only do it because we have to. 

The more books you read and the more games you play, the happier you will be. That's the way it is. I remember  reading the book 'Who goes there' by John Campbell. He wrote the story that the thing sci-fi horror is based on, it put lots of scary thoughts in my mind, it was a very interesting book. 

The joy of sitting down and playing cards or playing computer games is priceless. That is the way we need to be. I hope I can get my Nintendo switch soon and play lots of computer games in my down time. 

Spring Trance

It is march, one of the three spring months. A common thought an ordinary man like myself has is the love of being lost in what I'm doing. Playing computer games and listening to language lesson at the same time in the darkness of the night. If you're leaning Spanish while you play then you'll have no guilt about the time spent. 

There is nothing much to talk about. My society is struggling to balance itself out. They're trying to slow down inflation keep everyone in order. That's it. 

Another way to think less is browse online shops, look at loads of products without buying anything. I look at different t-shirts and devices. Sometimes a buy stuff but most the time I'm just looking. 

Nothing like being lost in a book though l.

Mayor of London

In recent months the current mayor of London has made some changes; a new map and names for the overground trains and ULES charges for higher emission vehicles. It's open to debate whether or not it's a good idea. No doubt I would do things differently if I was the mayor. 

Firstly I would have aluminium frames built above the open air portion of the metro rail with scaffolding that houses solar panels, I would get investors to pay for it and give them handsome returns to encourage them to invest a lot more. The space above the trains would become an asset to London transport because it sells electricity back to the national grid. 

Then I would introduce the 'small talk code', I would announce that if you wear a cap or t-shirt with red and green stripes, it means you're up for small talk. Perhaps people could have key words on their t-shirts for an ice breaker, like sports and computer games. London lacks small talk yet it is essential for mental health. I would have canvas printed signs attached to lamp posts to show everyone the ' small talk code'. 

I have many ideas that I think would be useful, boat rides to Southend for the tourists if they want to visit the coast and things like that. 

The problem is I have no prestige or status in society so my ideas will stay in my head. Never mind. Perhaps someone with a high status will read this post one day. 

That is the problem with society, you need a high status or prestige before anyone will listen to you. You could have a solution to a big problem and it would stay with you till you die. 

What February 2024 Means To Me

I call February 2024 the trickster spring because there was no frost in the mornings and we had a lot of rain like we do at the start of spring. Many plant beings were tricked by the climate, fruiting trees opened their blossom flowers early; I saw daisies sprouting flowers in the grass verges next to the road. That sums up February for Britain, lots of wind rain and unusually high temperatures for the tail end of winter. 

It was during February that NASA and a private company sent a probe to the south side of the moon looking for water ice, it was called  Odysseus. The probe landed badly and toppled over. In recent months, several probes were broken on the surface of the moon. They didn't land right or they couldn't persist through a moon night; two weeks of darkness and very cold temperatures. 

The Israel-Gaza war that started at the end of October last year was still ongoing. I hate all wars, ordinary people like myself that just want to live in peace get killed and injured. War is a ticket to the blues. I don't take sides. I just want everybody to live in peace. 

The Moon Again

I learnt just today that NASA and a private company had sent a probe to the south pole of the moon. The probe called Odysseus was carrying several instruments. 

I wonder if it can survive one moon night, 2 weeks of darkness and super frigid temperatures below -100 °c. I think the moon night often kills probes, some of them can't turn back on at sunrise. 

Every nation is obsessed with the moon now. It is like a stepping stone to deep space, or possible second home for people to live on. 

Faces and Names

The trademark logo for the British National lottery has a face on it hidden in plain sight. It looks like a hand with two fingers crossed but if you look closer, you'll see a face. I'm one of those people that notices things like that. I just wonder what the lottery logo's name would be. You can't have a face without a name. Perhaps it Hanz or something like that. 

Then I start thinking about God's name. 

God's Name is Yahwey, "Yar wai" It means 'I am'. I was wondering if it is a coincidence that it is also the sound effect the junction of your lungs makes. If you put a microphone in the Bronchi tubes next to your heart, you would hear the sound "Yar Wai" every time you breathe. 

Your lungs are saying 'I am' in Hebrew every time you Breathe, the sound is close to your heart, you can't hear it but the sound is there deep in your lungs. Perhaps every being that breathes air in this world is saying God's name. Why did God call himself 'I am'? Perhaps because God existed before everything, time and the universe. I don't know, I will have to ask. 

Fifty-two Means Balance

In a year there are 52 weeks. Ordinary working guys like myself tend to only buy clothing once per week so I buy 52 clothing items per year. I follow this rule very strictly. If I get a two or three t-shirt multi buy deal, I will wait 3 weeks before I resume buying clothing again. I slowly replace all my worn out clothes week by week. Unfortunately society doesn't except poorly dressed people, If I wear clothes that are damaged or worn out, people will think I'm stupid or lack integrity. Life literally becomes more difficult if you wear scruffy clothes, people expect you to be a nuisance or something like that and you get blamed for bad deeds. 

The number 52 means balance to me. If I'm in a job that is paid weekly or every four weeks, I would use the number 52 to work out my monthly wage. 

 Monthly income = Weekly income × 52 ÷ 12

52 weeks is one year and one month is 1 twelfth of a year. 

52 means balance to me. A balance between cost and personal presentation. I don't spend too much and I don't dress too poorly. I balance in the middle. 

Trickster Spring

Earlier in the week I noticed there was daisies sprouting out of the grass in roadside grass verges. I also noticed fruiting trees were producing blossom yet it is February, the tail end of winter in this part of the world. We had a very mild winter. I consider it spring when I see daisies in the grass. This year I'll call it spring on the first day of March for the sake of neatness. 

We're lucky in a way, on Friday I injured my right arm but it is healing. The triceps at the back of the arm were swollen and it hurt a lot. I don't understand how I injured it, the injury appeared gradually. just walking was painful because the arm didn't want to move. My arm is healing, If I was a robot then I would need to go to a repair shop to fix my arm. 

Eye Blinds

One of the challenges of sleeping these days is dealing with unwanted light. You have sodium street light rays bleeding in from the corners of the curtain, sometimes the new bright LED lamps and LED display lights for all the devices that are on standby. If you work at night then you have daylight getting through a bit. 

Not too long ago I tried folding a T-shirt three times and putting it on the top half of my face above my nose, the darkness was very peaceful. I lay there for a while and listened to the radio. After a while, the folded T-shirt became a bit irritating, it caused an itching sensation on my face. I wonder what it would be like to wear eye blinds to sleep, ones that are made for that one purpose. 

I could listen to my favourite podcasts while I lay down in total darkness.  There is something very comforting about complete darkness; I think it is letting go of your ego and just thinking about other things. I could just be listening to a story that has nothing to do with me, like the story of two fishermen that were stranded on a small life boat and ran out of fresh water.  Perhaps I could listen to Neil Armstrong talking about walking on the moon and being the first Human to walk on the moon. There are so many stories out there to listen to.