Bad Dream

Have you ever had a bad dream where you are sitting a difficult exam or doing difficult course work and the memory of finishing it is removed from you. I had something like that last night. In such a dream, waking up brings relief because the memory of the problem being solved comes back to you. 

I get up, put my slippers on and look down at the floor around my feet and wonder how long the dream was going on for. Then I go to the bathroom and wash the sweat off my face and urinate and go back to bed. Our memory keeps us in order; we have to remember that our problems in the past are solved otherwise they become new problems. When  I sleep I think my brain deliberately holds back most of my memory, I don't even know who I am most of the time when I'm asleep. 

I wonder why our brains do that to us, they make us relive a difficult period in our lives and hold back the memory of the event passing or being resolved.

Is it deliberate or just a by-product of dreaming? 

If I had made the lottery

If I owned a lottery company, it would be outstanding because the player would always win. Let me explain.

Firstly, If I designed a lottery ticket, the other side of it would be a scratch card. The ticket would have many ways to win. There would be an array of numbers that you choose for a draw every week. On the the same side of the ticket there would be a raffle number. On the lottery part of the ticket, you would choose five numbers between 0 and 9 so there would be a very high chance of winning.

Secondly, On the other side of the ticket, the scratch card would have seven panels, one for each day of the week. You would scratch them off to see how much you have won. Then there would be one panel that has a 50% chance of winning and it is to get a free ticket.

Thirdly, The left corner of the ticket would contain a special paper that contains detailed art work, lines and holographic panels; it would resemble a typical bank note. The paper would tear away, much like a stamp from a stamp book and would be collectable. 52 of these special collectable papers would exist because there are 52 weeks in a year.

You see, even if the ticket contains no money prizes, there is still a small prize, the collectable art paper. And with this lottery there is much more chance of winning.

Veranda house

One thing I mentioned earlier is that it is my deep dreams and mental games that keep me going in this world.

One such dream is a custom built house that exists in my head. The house has a veranda going all the way around it. A veranda is like a porch but it it is wide and has benches on it for sitting on. The house in my dream is a rich man's house but it is not for showing off. It is like that because it's a paradise. A sanctuary that brings joy.

If I didn't have these dreams and visions then my life would be more difficult because the grim realities of life would take a bigger grip on me.

My dreams are still alive

Today I confirm that I still want the same things in my life.

1) I want a Kindle paper white
2) I want a Nintendo switch
3) I want 3 incomes of £20,000 each, one from my job another from the family vending business and the other from media like my book and pages.
4) I want my own home
5) I want financial independence, I want to work without needing to work.
6) I want a family of my own.
7) I want my own man cave/ hobby room.
8) I want my own small mansion built on a  small man made island on a small man made lake.

Then I have big dreams. They go on and on.
The list goes on and my dreams stay alive.
I am grateful to still have them because life can seem very grim and cold.