One third of January

One third of January passed by, just like that. It goes by too quickly for me. It was filled with lots of thoughts. I wondered if they ever tried to make a car that runs on dry ice. Frozen Carbon Dioxide goes straight from ice to gas when it heats up. I thought that when it turns into a gas, it is still cold and has a lot of room for expansion. You could have a heat exchanger that mixes warm air with dry ice co2 to produce a lot of expansion. At the same time there would be contraction from air mixed and even that could be harnessed. 

Then I was thinking how rivers are full of kinetic energy and they are very long. Some of the water from the river could be syphoned off into aquaducts and used to turn lots of water wheels below the ground close to river banks. Yet we turn to wind all the time, most of the rivers are always flowing but the wind doesn't always blow. I don't get the logic. 

Then I was thinking about if they dropped tinned baked beans near an enemy in war and they made it look like a mistake. The enemy would eat the beans and fart. "Faaaaart" then "bang". Fart Fart, bang bang. Fart location, they would shoot at the farting. Who cares if my thoughts are silly? I don't care. One day there will be no thoughts in my brain, just decay; it would be as if my thoughts never existed. 

I was also thinking about the Chromecast a lot. I was wondering if it can handle a graphically demanding game without slowing down too much. My TV has a frame rate of 50 hertz but the Chromecast was running at 60 hertz, I slowed it down and the image was the same, it was working hard for nothing. 

Big day approaches

A big day is approaching, the day Jacob will be born. The story I have for him for the weeks commencing his birth are comprehensive. His island home of Great Britain is caught in a powerful parliamentary deadlock that may only be broken by the Queen or the default outcome. They are all pulling in different directions and can't agree on how Brexit will executed.

Jacob himself is not born yet and his due date was last week at the start of April. The English weather has had a very bad start, the spring is cold and overcast with clouds most of the time.
We are worried that some of his family will miss the day he is born because they will need to return to Peru. I will need to return to work soon.

He we are all waiting. His Grandparents are waiting and so is his aunty. His dad will be forced to return to work soon. We are all waiting and hoping. Two deadlocks are playing out, a late birth and geopolitical exit that is delayed.

All that is left is patience and optimism.

One month

In the space of about one month, I will hopefully become a parent. My son, Jacob is due to be born during the first week of April.

It is a stressful time for me but I have many coping mechanisms inside my head to help me feel less stressed. I create things such as art and videos, and I create machines inside my head that do certain things. I try to solve logical problems inside my head. People will see me and think I'm absent minded because they don't understand what is going on.

Anyway, there are many questions I have about the near future. Such as, will I give Jacob a good childhood? Will he have a long happy life? What will it mean to be a British boy growing up in the 2020's for Jacob. Will he live in a country that has been driven into poverty?  Will Jacob have a good social life and find it easy to make friends? What will Jacob value when he is an adult? What will he look like? Will he have good health? Will Jacob have good parents that steer him in all the right paths. Will his birth be straightforward and safe? So many questions, so many.

Some of my own Questions cause anxiety?

What 2018 means to me

The year 2018 has come to an end and 2019 has just begun. The 2020s decade is very near perhaps it will be a decade I don't recognise if it changes a lot. 

I spent the start of this year in winter waiting to be reunited with my wife. I was reunited with my wife in spring 2018 in May, just before my father's 70th birthday. We made the weekend of my father's birthday special and celebrated in a hotel in Reading city.
I spent the second half of the year from July as an expectant father and in the winter of 2018 I learned that my first child will be a boy. In the spring of 2019 he will be born.

I worked harder in this year then I did any other time in my existence. I often worked through the night and carried on working during the morning and only came home to sleep. I try to have one day off every week.

2018 is very much like 2016, the British people are divided into three groups, Brexiteers, Remainers and Abstainers. People that want to leave the EU, people that want to remain and people that are not sure. The exit deal has not been agreed and it is not certain if an agreement can be reached. I often wonder why David Cameron conducted the 2016 refferendom when he was not prepared for both outcomes. He underestimated the size of the Eurosceptic community so I guess he thought we would just choose to remain and it would all be over. Brexit was a very big part of British life in 2018, the UK government changed staff many times and many cabinet ministers were fired or resigned over Brexit. There were many fiery exchanges on TV and radio debates about the topic. The British currency seemed to devalue every time there was a setback with negotiations.

The forces of nature were very strong this year. There were many very powerful storms throughout the world and there was a Tsunami in Indonesia. As an islander myself I feel sad for the Indonesian people. Us people that live on islands are vulnerable from the coastal areas.

Governments throughout the world set out to kill citizens that openly criticized them, With powerful poisons or violent ambushes in embassy buildings. It has nothing to do with me and I don't get involved.

The best thing about 2018 is that we came closer to finding an all encompassing cure to cancer, there may be a time when all cancers are just a slight nuisance, much like the flu or common cold. Our knowledge increased much more and we gained a great deal of insight from space probes about the other world's that share our Sun.

I wish everyone a happy 2019 and hope for a brilliant start to the 2020s decade. And I hope that my son will be born safely with no health issues.

Peace love and gratitude to all.

Five Pence

One app I use on my phone more than any other is the calculator app.
I like to make crude statistical observations using my calculator.

Have you ever wondered how much salary you would earn if you continuously received 5 pence every minute? I did the math.

There is 1440 minutes in a day so every day you would make £72 or $72 if you were getting five cents. There is 365 days in a year so you would receive £26,280 annually before tax.
There are 12 months so if you divide £26,280 by 12, you get.. £2,190 every month. At the time of writing this blog entry, a salary of £2190 per month is more than the income of most people on my Island, even before tax. As a second income, that is outstanding.

All that is left is to think of things that generate 5 pence every minute all day without your intervention.

Perhaps a website or commission from a media product you have made or something like that.

Charity Crisis and Gun control

This month has been very cold and grim. It is in February 2018 that large charities were exposed for scandal. Staff working at these charities were soliciting prostitutes in the countries they were operating in. Many people were angry that the charities were covering up the scandals. Aid workers were also getting sexual favours for aid, they were using their position to exploit women. I must admit that it makes it hard to give to charity if you know this was going on.

Many people think that Jacob Reese Mog will one day become the next UK Priminister. Seeing is believing. I like him and his honesty but I don't think he will take the helm even in his own party. Most people that are reading this have better insight than me because they are reading it in the future.

Another problem was the high school shooting in America, It has happened too many times now. It is almost like a problem that can't be solved. If you change the Gun law then they will still get guns from somewhere else. At least they can ban the hand gun and just allow shot guns and riffles. Well let's see.

Pain

Today I went to work with a neck pain, let me explain why...

At 19:30 there was a loud noise and I turned my head very quickly. The noise came from outside, some traffic incident I believe. The rapid movement of my head caused my neck that was nearly healed to be re-injured.

Here's the problem, I said I would come for overtime and It was close to the start of my shift. I had to come because it would damage my reputation as a reliable worker. I rely on my good reputation to get overtime regularly. It would cost me a lot in the future if I didn't come. I'm at a stage in my life where I had some very large bills so I have a policy of always accepting overtime when it comes even though I work full time.

Here I am at work with pain in my neck. I took some pain killers and I am focused on the work. No one knows I am in so much pain. If they could see the true me, they would see a man in tears. A man that is fighting for completion with crippling pain.

Here is the end of January with fire and resilience. Will power and hope.