Two Room thought

Sometimes I feel angry at society because there is little respect for ordinary people. I see people filming restaurant staff and complaining about their service. What they are doing is posting the video on social media and inviting other people to mock them, to me that is cyber bullying. I always speak up when things like that happen. I always condemn videos of staff being mocked on the internet. The same is true of traffic wardens and police, they share the video on social media and invite other people to mock them. It's very disrespectful and not the way to treat a human being. 

When abrasive thoughts like that enter my head, I try to replace them with happy thoughts. I imagine myself having a house big enough that I can use 2 large rooms for my hobbies. One room is a Man-cave filled with games and toys. The other room is a workshop filled with power tools that I use to build things. These are constructive thoughts in my view because they are displacing unwanted thoughts. 

Snow flake

In this world, I try not to be angry because prolonged anger is destructive and takes energy away from your constructive thoughts.  I think I have got the upper hand with road rage.

There is one thing that really made me angry and that was discovering that a university student tried to make staff remove a war memorial because all the people on it were white.

The local people in the war memorial painting were all white at the time, that is not their fault. In the 1920's, the UK was not multicultural or multiethnic so there is no evidence the painter was racist or bigoted. Memorials in my view are our way to say sorry and thank you to the war torn communities. I drive past the Polish war memorial nearly every day. We say sorry to the people because they lost their lives and we say thank you for putting yourself in danger for the sake of their community.

If you have a problem with that then keep it to yourself. No one has a right to deface or try to remove war memorials.

What February 2018 means to me

As you know, February is a very short month that is 28 days long but a lot happened.

There was a high school shooting in Florida I believe. I felt sad because they are just little kids. They need strong doors in their schools because young people in America are being poisoned by rejection and hate and they are finding no hope but to violently outburst with guns. I wish I could give the person with a gun a hug and comfort before the poison had taken a grip of him. The poison is comming from media. They feel empty and worthless because of the messages in the tvs. The TVs and phones are telling people that they are valued by their posesions and how they look, the poison is making them sick. People's minds are being poisoned by hate. The hate grows so big that they can't contain it.

On this month I learned that the small plastic pellets that are used in plastic production are called Nurdles. I learned this because a shipping container fell into the ocean near south Africa and caused the coastline to be filled with Nurdles. The wildlife was poisoned by the pellets because the animals eat them thinking they are eggs and the acids in their stomachs are releasing toxins trapped in the pellets.

Here in the UK, the last week of February was very cold. My car was covered with ice every day and it snowed a lot but spring is around the corner. There was also an explosion in the North of England caused by a gas leak. The approach of Brexit for the UK government was shifting frantically and the labour party decided that staying in the customs union is the right way but the main Government want to be out of the customs union for the freedom to make our own trade deals.

February 2018 is filled with poisoned minds and poisoned beings. Fire and Ice and fear mixed with bravery. I am grateful for opportunity and hope and all the free things I use every day such as this blog.

Sleep challenges

I work at night and when I get home I like to sleep. The problem is that people forget that you are sleeping at the other side of the clock. Imagine you went to sleep at 9:30 am instead of 9:30 pm, what would 2 pm be to you? Would it not be the same as 2 in the morning? This is the problem, they don't realise that you need to be asleep at that time.

This is the problem with working night shift. You are disturbed thought the day. If I go and wake someone up at 2 in the morning I would be considered a rude person. Be this is what happens when you work at night.

The phone will rings, doors will slam and messages will be sent and then the person trying to sleep is angry because he wakes up feeling tired.

Disappointment

Today I was filled with disappointment because I saw high level people that were trying to stop brexit. Brexit is British exit from the European union. They think we can't prosper outside the EU. They also think that we need access to the common market. 

If we stay in Europe or Leave I don't mind because I think highly of my country and think it will prosper, what ever happens. The issue I have is the way many people of the UK judge their own country. I believe that the Biggest problem this county has is it's self image.  There are millions of people across the UK that think we are weak. They think way are not strong enough to stand on our own. I hope they move to France, they can prepare their Hindsight speeches. 

In my opinion, the biggest threat to the UK is not Leaving the EU, or the huge Dept we have collected. The biggest threat to our well being is our own minds. If you think you and your country are weak then you are right. Vision is everything. If the Japanese looked down on themselves in the 1940s when their land was in ruins then they would not have become one of the worlds greatest economies in the decades that followed.  

I want to shout out loud. We are strong, we are strong! as loud possible. I feel fire in my belly because have vision for the UK. I know we can prosper no matter what happens. We can do anything unless we don't believe.

my wall

Today I have learned that there are very few things that you can do that won't get a pessimistic reaction but there is something you can do about it.

When I was much younger I had very little respect from other people because I didn't have a normal development. I was either transparent or ridiculed. I hated going to school. I was a different person and looked at the world differently to others and paid a heavy price for being myself. I had very little respect from other people. I carried a large amount of anger inside me for so long. In a small way, I felt I could relate to the columbine shooter that killed his class mates because being ostracized for being different is very painful and demoralizing. If you are socially ostracized and disrespected by others for a long time you can become a bitter and hateful person as you age.

I have started to deal with this problem, I have unfriended 2 people on Facebook today because I feel they don't respect me and I have also vowed to use the report abuse button when I am trolled without interacting with the person. If someone trolls me, they are wasting their time because I won't respond to them and I will instantly block them. I am slowly blocking negative and pessimistic people in my life. I am also determined to avoid conversation with people that are rude and negative. I will save all my social time for positive, respectful and tolerant individuals.

Me and President Trump are living a parallel life because I am building a social wall to keep negative people out of my Face. Trump is building a wall to keep out illegal immigrants. Somehow, I feel my wall will bring a better outcome than Trump's wall.

I admire the way Donald sneers the press because they can be very nasty, I remember when the Newspapers called Micheal Jackson "Wako Jacko", that is so rude and disrespectful. It is nice to have a guy with a big ego being rude back to them. Attitude isn't always such a bad thing.

I am grateful for all the good things in my life and a working mind appreciates everything.