One thing I know in this world is that my sense of humour is very poor in value, I am far from a comedian. However I produce hundreds of jokes. The reason I make so many jokes up is because my mind reaches a restless stormy state and I need to push it straight.
I briefly reach a state of mind that is toxic every day. I feel afraid of the future and I feel angry because I am in a world I don't fit into and I feel frustrated because I have loads of ideas in my head but they are trapped there. This stormy state of mind is interrupted by my jokes. The jokes for me are one of the tools I use to rebalance my mind. The jokes for me come in twos because I find amusement with people's blank expression when they don't find it funny.
I am grateful for my jokes because they are for me and not for others although I sometimes share them. The world has giving me a little Swiss army knife of mental tools that help me keep going and protect my mind from sickness. My imagination, my jokes and a beautiful village inside my head that I walk though and feel peace and harmony.
