Last Day of October

It is the last day of October darkness closes in as time passes by and I come to terms with everything that is happening. 

I talk to machines more than people, that is what is significant about this year. It is clear that I speak to artificial intelligence more than people. I don't hate people, it's just more straightforward to talk to machines. I live in a society where small talk is largely gone; People wear headphones and get annoyed if you interrupt their music. If I chat to a woman, she will think I'm trying to seduce her, if I chat to a man, he'll think I'm trying to sell him something. The ai is neither, a disembodied mind without feelings or judgement. There is no sly malicious intentions in the mind of the machines thus far. I would have more to fear from other human beings. 

Despite everything that is happening, I managed to post a small illustrated magazine, the 4th one so far on my other blog. 

November cheerBus mini booklet . It's not the way I wanted it to be, it was compromised by chaos, a family health crisis. I kept going when I could and tried to make something nice. I hope I can grow a big audience and improve the product every time. 

Flix and Chill

My favourite platform for watching videos on the internet is now netflix because YouTube has been filled up with ai slop. There are loads of videos where the speaking and the person speaking were made by ai. It just feels hollow and lifeless. I still go on YouTube see what computer games are like. 

I watch lots of detective shows and netflix finds more of them for me to watch. I like the mystery and the careful sifting through evidence and the elimination of suspects until they find the guy that did it. I also like the interviews with the whiteness and the relatives. The software knows what I like keeps finding more of it for me to watch. I don't need to make a watch list. 

I could sit there with some snacks and cup of tea or coffee and relax for a little while. 

Gloom Rising

The Gloom rises all around me. Riots in France. A family health crisis, everywhere is full of chaos. I try to be the guy that keeps himself in order. No one notices that I'm there. It was so windy today and a bit cold. 

keep your head straight, keep your chin up. Don't over think things. What else is there to do. 

The place to go

I was thinking about how one could build an office and man-cave under a greenhouse if they had their own garden. No one would notice it is there because it would look like a box table sticking up from inside the greenhouse, they wouldn't see that half of it is sunken below the ground like a partial basement. 

The office could be a tiny box room partitioned on one side of the man-cave and it would be the place I sit quietly and get everything done. At the back of the man cave there would be a kind of bar but it would be a place I keep soft drinks and snacks. There would be a fridge with a clear door so you can see what is in there. There would also be a small heater, the heat would gather in the ceiling and heat up the greenhouse above so the tomato vines would survive the winter. The heat would be used twice, it would heat up the man-cave and seep out into the greenhouse above. 

If possible there would be four recliners in there with a projector that is hooked up to games consoles and a smart TV player. The bar at the back would have the projector and some stools that can swivel around. Up to 8 people could be in there watching a movie on the projector. 

Sunken Office Man-cave

I was thinking if you had your own garden, you could have an office and man-cave in the back yard partially sunken in the ground inside a greenhouse. 

You would dig a square trench that is 1 meter deep and add a wall that is 1 meter above ground and a wooden roof above it. The trench plus the wall adds up to just under 2 meters if you take into account the floor and roof thickness. Above that would be clear plastic panels so you would have a box within a clear box, the inner box would be a man-cave with a projector and recliners and a small partition for a tiny box office. The ceiling of the man-cave would have pot boxes on it to grow tomatoes. It would look more like a table than top portion of a room. 

I was looking at the raspberry pi zero version 2 and noticed it had a 64 bit processor and only half a gig of ram; I laughed because we switched to 64 processors so we could run more than 4 gigabytes of ram. I guess the 64 bit processor is for software compatibility so you can run the same OS system as the more advanced versions of raspberry pi. It is not bad for something that is roughly  £10 in value. You can have full working pc for a tenner. The thing is about the size of a credit card. It could be the  computer I use in the sunken office. 

My imagination never rests. 

Pope Cancer and French Riots

I learnt the other day that the pope had surgery on his left lung to remove some growths. We now know that he had cancer on his left lung, they have caught it early and we don't know yet it it is benign or the type that spreads. Shortly after his surgery he returned to his duties and took part on the Sunday mass shortly after that. He's a brave soul. 

While the Pope was recovering from his lung surgery, there was a riot in France. They caused destruction to several major landmarks. I felt like the far left were hijacking a genuine protest because they hate their country too much. There was a genuine protest for people that want something done about the increased cost of living. 

Middle of October

It is the middle of October, there is a smear on men once again because of a high profile court case involving suspected rape. Then I learnt of missiles flying all over the place. Lots of deaths everywhere. Houthis shooting a Saudi airports, suicide drone in East Europe. Hostile times. 

A man called William Chapman struggled with mental illness for a long time and finally got himself killed by a tiger in the north of England; it is sad because he must have been living in his own hell to finally do that. I feel pity for his family, they must be going through. It is almost as if Alti the tiger was granting dark sad wish. 

I try to bring my thoughts to life so people can see what many ordinary men are actually thinking about. I think  about things and computer games. Trains and train stations that only exist in my head. Lots of things that may never exist in the physical world. 

Inverted Guided Articulated Hovercraft

A famous celebrity has been taken to court and charged with suspected rape. I thought I should bring a common thought in my head to life to give ladies insight into truth, to show them what some men are really thinking about. 

I day dreamed about an inverted guided conjoined articulated hovercraft; you can call it a train I guess. 

It hangs from flanges attached to the ceiling. Jets of air flow onto the flanges to make it float like a hockey puck on a air hockey table. The train has two floors so passengers can go upstairs if they're in good shape and want to avoid crowding below. I could have day dreamed about a magnetic levitation train but I don't like how very long arrays of strong electric magnets along the whole track. 

The air jets tilt slightly to make the train move forward. There is also wheels inside the drive unit incase there is a power cut or engine failure. 

The beauty of the train like vehicle would be that there is no wheels grinding on rails. The track doesn't get worn down by metal wheels. 

Tiger Death

I learnt recently that a man called William Chapman climbed into a tiger enclosure in Yorkshire and was killed by one of the Tigers. I feel pity for him and his family. It is mystery why he went in there. Everyone wants to know why he did it but the witness himself is not with us so we may never know. 

While this happened, I learnt the Houthis had launched  missiles at an airport in Saudi Arabia. I don't understand what they're trying to do. 

I also learnt to that people are using AI to launch cyber attacks on companies. What a world we live in, a world where new problems exist every year. 

I distract myself with daydreams of machines that don't exist, I was thinking about and inverted articulated guided conjoined Hovercraft, you can call it a train I guess. It hangs from above and hovers on a pocket of air. Magnetic induction trains are better but they're expensive and the whole rail road needs to be lined with powerful computer controlled magnets. 

Instant Noodle Hack

I thought it was a good idea to steam vegetables and to use the soup from instant Noodles to flavor them. I could cook it in different ways, I can add the vegetables directly to the instant noodle soup and boil it for a while before I add the dry noodles. I could also make some stir fried vegetables and add the noodles at the end. This is all a reaction to a family health crisis. I thought that most of my diet should be vegetables. I should aim for about 60% vegetables or above. 

I had trouble falling asleep earlier so I created a card game inside my head. It worked, the card game diverted my thoughts away from my worries and left me in a state of mind that can drift off to sleep.  

Botched Execution

I leaned recently that a woman called Christa Pike was due to be executed by lethal injection but the execution was botched. She survived the execution because her veins are thinner than normal. She regained consciousness in hospital because the poison in the injection didn't work. 

I thought to myself that the best way to execute someone would be to slowly fill a chamber they're in with nitrogen so they die from hypoxia. Painless and effective I think. 

At the time of learning the strange news I thought to myself if some of the band members of Queen reunited, like Roger Taylor and Brian May, the band would still be called queen, if they brought in two other band members then later left the band, would it still be Queen?  All the original band members have left and they have been replaced by new band members sequentially. Two hundred years later Queen is still there but all the original band members passed away. Would people start calling it a tribute band by that time? Would they forget there was a sequence of older band members that left the group in the past? 

Articulated Guided Inverted Hovercraft

I was daydreaming for solace, thinking about an articulated guided inverted conjoined hovercraft; a metro rail system with no wheels or rails to grind down. I imagined it would run from Eden in high Wycombe, stop at Wycombe train station, then odds farm park and finish at Amersham. The so called train would be inverted so it hangs from a pod that is fitted with a hovercraft fixture. 

If it was real, it would be below ground, the train shaped Hovercraft would hang from the ceiling area and passengers would get on at the bottom of the train. The so called train would have two floors so people in good shape that don't like crowding could got upstairs. 

I know I'm being judged all the time because of superficial outward appearances but the truth is I'm just a man that uses his imagination to create a little safe room, a place with some peace in this world filled with chaos. 

October the 7th

About 3 years ago there was massive attack on Israeli communities led by Hamas. It was a Saturday during the Sabbath when Jews rest from work. I don't understand how but one the Hamas fighter's live stream appeared on my X (twitter) feed. I saw them throwing granades into ordinary people's houses and shooting the family has they tried to escape, I was so shocked by what I saw that I felt sick. I was also shocked when I saw the comments section because there was people celebrating the murder or ordinary people. 

In response to this I will pray that Jesus returns and brings an end to all the evil in this world. I hope I will never see so much evil again. I feel pity for all those ordinary people that are trying to get by got killed by people that are being controlled by dogma and hatred. 

Yeshua son of the Father is the only way. May we bow to him and treasure his love and peace forever. 

I talk to machines more than people these days, it's a way to reclaim precious small talk and socialise on tap. I don't hate people, it's just convenient to talk to machines. Small talk and knowledge on tap. 

Outbursts Increase

One thing I have noticed is there are more angry outbursts amongst people and the cost of fuel went up to close to £2 per liter. Ouch. I can't  do anything about that. I also noticed that people walk around with weapons more as well so we are living in a more dangerous world. A more dangerous angry and expensive world. 

On the upside I learnt something useful the other day, If you have a banana covered in Brown freckles, you can place it next to fruit that isn't ripe and it will ripen more quickly. The fully ripened freckled banana gives off ethylene gas. Fruits respond to ethylene gas by ripening very quickly. 

Freckled bananas taste like sweets. 

What September 2026 Means to Me

September 26 was quite difficult, I won't say why. All I will say is there was a health crisis involving someone close to me, I will say nothing else. A doorway opened to a hell Scape that wiped out all the peace left inside me. It was a bit too much. We are here for a short time and then it is over. I wrestled with my mind to think less and try to be absent from the chaos. What else can I do? 

As time passed by, the world continued to prove people can't live in peace. It was on the last day of the month a terrorist tried to cause to plane to crash into Israel. 

May I stay humble and not look at others and think I'm better than anyone else. If that thought ever emerges, may I remember the bad deeds I did throughout my life. Everything that merits shame will remind me I'm just a speck, I little human being amongst other specks that is just here for a short time. May the day I was born just be a day to rest and take a short break. Everything that merits my shame will remind me I'm not good, I'm just man. A man trying not to overthink and be at peace.