My dreams are still alive

Today I confirm that I still want the same things in my life.

1) I want a Kindle paper white
2) I want a Nintendo switch
3) I want 3 incomes of £20,000 each, one from my job another from the family vending business and the other from media like my book and pages.
4) I want my own home
5) I want financial independence, I want to work without needing to work.
6) I want a family of my own.
7) I want my own man cave/ hobby room.
8) I want my own small mansion built on a  small man made island on a small man made lake.

Then I have big dreams. They go on and on.
The list goes on and my dreams stay alive.
I am grateful to still have them because life can seem very grim and cold.

Comfort in sound

I am walking towards a better life for me and my wife. I hope to make something good and make progress in my life.

When I was a young boy I would play the on my Sega mega drive a lot. I played super hang on, It had a beautiful sound track.  Later in life I played Zelda and the twilight princess on my Nintendo Wii. That game made a huge impression on me because it was so beautiful on many levels.

One of the things that made the game so special was the sounds. There were hundreds of sound affects. When you obtained something special or when you were fighting the demons in dog form and so on.

The sounds of the game live on in me. They are of comfort on so many levels. The most important thing in life is to be happy.

I want to be happy. I am grateful for a chance to be.

Back on track

I have resumed saving up for a Kindle paper white, because a cash gift from a relative allowed me to get a new phone. The tin is no longer for a new phone. Reading books is such a big part of my life and I love reading all sorts of sci Fi and true life mystery books.

The way I save for gadgets is as follows, when I have coins left in my pocket I put the chrome coloured ones in a metal tin. The chrome English coins are 5p 10p 20p and 50p. One p or pence is 1 percent of the one pound. 1 pound is the base of the English currency, 50p is half of one pound. I don't put copper coloured 1p or 2p coins because I have learnt in the past that a whole tin would only be 10 pound if it were filled with them.

The brass coloured coins are one pou I 1nd and two pound. I don't add brass coins because I would run out of cash too quickly if I did that every time. I put the chrome coins and not the brass or copper ones.

Penny's are useless but I can put 20 of them in the coffee machine at work and have a coffee.

I give thanks for reading because it is my greatest love.

Progress

I replaced my broken smart phone with another smart phone. I am now more productive than ever before. I make one video per day and also 2 blog posts and 3 minutes of my movie despite working 40 hours a week. I hope my wife does not mind. 

I am hopeful that my videos and all my creations will grow in popularity. I will say no more loss and defeat, only progress.

When I was a young boy, my father bought me nature magazines all about bugs. I think it was called "bugs", I think it was a fortnightly publication. I would feel excited every time a new magazine was released and would get excited about what was inside the magazine.

Today I am grateful for my strength and dreams because they are a wonderful gift. I also extend my gratitude for all my good memories because they comfort me in hard times.

Disappointment

Today I was filled with disappointment because I saw high level people that were trying to stop brexit. Brexit is British exit from the European union. They think we can't prosper outside the EU. They also think that we need access to the common market. 

If we stay in Europe or Leave I don't mind because I think highly of my country and think it will prosper, what ever happens. The issue I have is the way many people of the UK judge their own country. I believe that the Biggest problem this county has is it's self image.  There are millions of people across the UK that think we are weak. They think way are not strong enough to stand on our own. I hope they move to France, they can prepare their Hindsight speeches. 

In my opinion, the biggest threat to the UK is not Leaving the EU, or the huge Dept we have collected. The biggest threat to our well being is our own minds. If you think you and your country are weak then you are right. Vision is everything. If the Japanese looked down on themselves in the 1940s when their land was in ruins then they would not have become one of the worlds greatest economies in the decades that followed.  

I want to shout out loud. We are strong, we are strong! as loud possible. I feel fire in my belly because have vision for the UK. I know we can prosper no matter what happens. We can do anything unless we don't believe.

my wall

Today I have learned that there are very few things that you can do that won't get a pessimistic reaction but there is something you can do about it.

When I was much younger I had very little respect from other people because I didn't have a normal development. I was either transparent or ridiculed. I hated going to school. I was a different person and looked at the world differently to others and paid a heavy price for being myself. I had very little respect from other people. I carried a large amount of anger inside me for so long. In a small way, I felt I could relate to the columbine shooter that killed his class mates because being ostracized for being different is very painful and demoralizing. If you are socially ostracized and disrespected by others for a long time you can become a bitter and hateful person as you age.

I have started to deal with this problem, I have unfriended 2 people on Facebook today because I feel they don't respect me and I have also vowed to use the report abuse button when I am trolled without interacting with the person. If someone trolls me, they are wasting their time because I won't respond to them and I will instantly block them. I am slowly blocking negative and pessimistic people in my life. I am also determined to avoid conversation with people that are rude and negative. I will save all my social time for positive, respectful and tolerant individuals.

Me and President Trump are living a parallel life because I am building a social wall to keep negative people out of my Face. Trump is building a wall to keep out illegal immigrants. Somehow, I feel my wall will bring a better outcome than Trump's wall.

I admire the way Donald sneers the press because they can be very nasty, I remember when the Newspapers called Micheal Jackson "Wako Jacko", that is so rude and disrespectful. It is nice to have a guy with a big ego being rude back to them. Attitude isn't always such a bad thing.

I am grateful for all the good things in my life and a working mind appreciates everything.

Wish list

I have a wish list, a list of things I want to have,

1) New Phone
2) Kindle paper white
3) Nintendo Switch
4) Successful business
5) Home of my own
6) Man Cave
7) Successful business
8) Time and money to travel the world

The home and man cave have a list of their own.