Speck in the cosmos

I think that one of the biggest problems with society is we have conditional respect. If you do something outstanding or you are a big shot or celebrity then your point of view is more important than everyone else's. I learned this in June 2016 when celebrities were asked their opinions about the Brexit outcome. If I have a point of view about Brexit I wouldn't be free to express it, after just 2 minutes someone would just talk over me. They would say "yeah yeah, whatever Alan" or something like that. 

What society does is it puts itself in the centre of the universe and glorifies itself. What they don't realise is the entire planet is just a speck in the cosmos. It is almost nothing. If the Earth was smashed to pieces then the rest of the universe wouldn't notice any difference. The universe may last for 100 billion years but we live for decades, our lives are almost equal to nothing. We exist and we stop existing in a brief moment in time yet our ancestors made themselves into gods in their own eyes. 

If prestige was ever given to me for any reason and I was famous then I would be the man that has nothing to say. I will have no political polarity, no point of view and no desire to be glorified. If they offered me an award I would not want it. I will be the celebrity that has no opinion at all. I will be the opposite to all those people that made statues of themselves as gods. I will just be a man that respects and loves the creator of the universe and has nothing to say. 

Earthy smell

It was raining yesterday for most of the day and when the soil gets wet it gives of a musky oily smell called Petrichor. I learned recently that the smell comes from oils in the plant roots that protect the roots from dehydration and also methane and nitrite compounds made by bacteria. 

The roads that are present today are made of asphalt and when they are being resurfaced they also have a strong smell that I like. Perhaps this is the reason I would like a home with a large porch. You can sit on a soft chair on the porch when it is raining and listen to all the drops falling and breathe the Petrichor through your nose. 

It is the simple things that bring joy in this world. I am thankful for all of them. 

Toddler emerges

Jacob, my son. You are now a toddler, you changed from an infant to a toddler at the end of the Spring lockdown of 2020 during a period of civil unrest while statues of evil people were toppled. 

You manipulate your own food and are able to walk in a clumsy toddler way and say a few things.  I wait patiently to see what kind of person you will be as you grow. 

Nebuchadnezzar Statue falls

Nebuchadnezzar is the name of the plasma hovercraft that rescued Neo in the movie called "the matrix" when he was unplugged and flushed down the toilet. It is also the name of the king of Babylon. In the bible book of Daniel, King Nebuchadnezzar was given a dream by God that showed future events. He was dreaming about today's world. I think everyone should have a look. He had several dreams that predict what will happen in current times. 

When I saw the statues of evil bastards being toppled around the world I remember Nebuchadnezzar dreamed of a statue being destroyed by a giant Rock. The statue was made of 4 metals and the 4 metals are the 4 empires that would rule over Babylon, present day Iraq I think. 

The book of Daniel in the bible is the most interesting book because it is premonitions of today's world. 

Toppling Statues

So far I would say that in june, people around the world were toppling statues of people that were evil bastards when they were alive. I had no hard feelings for most of them, they were slave traders and generals from fascist militaries. 

If Winston Churchill's statue was toppled I would be a little upset because he was what I call a flawed hero. He was racist and and alcoholic but he resisted hitler and stopped the third Reich from taking over the world. 

He did all the negotiating to get Indians Canadians and persuade USA to help us fight Hitler. Lesser leaders simply saw the huge military machine that Hitler had assembled and decided to cooperate or surrender. 

I don't care much about statues, I have no hard feelings if they are pulled down, unless the fall on my feet. 

spring lock connection

In my little world there is a strange connection between this spring 2020 and spring 2008. They are both times when I was forced by nature to stop what I was doing and confront my thoughts. 

In April 2008 there was a freak snow storm that came out of nowhere. The British transport system was unprepared and there was no salt to melt the ice on the roads, the weeks before showed very warm weather. It rarely snows in April in England, especially when the weather is warm. At the time I was questioning whether it was right to eat meat. I realized that human society was imprisoning animals for all their youth then killing them for food, I thought that was cruel. I thought that it is wrong to eat meat because you are supporting a cruel deed, you are a part of the team that caused the animal to be trapped and killed. By the middle of April 2008 I became a vegetarian and I am still a vegetarian 12 years later in 2020. 

Now it is the end of the 2020 lockdown Spring and I have defined my lifestyle and named it. I call it the Grey zone, working hard and just being ok. I also realized that my life is almost equal to nothing because I won't exist for most of the time the universe is here. I just have a tiny little slot, a tiny flash of life that will last less than 150 years. Infact if you are reading this now 100 years in the future then my mind has probably already perished and my thoughts are no more. I am at the mercy of the creator. Unless I am restored to consciousness after my life ends, everything I am doing and thinking is for nothing. I realized that I want to escape from the grey zone and need to understand why I exist. I need to find God. Somehow I need to get in touch with the creator of the universe. 

Brit sickness

Spring 2020 was written off for most people because of the lockdown. If I wasn't doing key work, I was at home. Most my family's birthdays are in Spring so I was absent from their parties and even my own son's birthday was spent isolated at home however the United Kingdom still had the most Covid19 deaths in the world. At first I thought that the government messed up. Then I realized that the problem was not the government, it was the Brits themselves. 

Through my own observations and from looking at the news I can say that the Brits are very stubborn and don't like being told what to do. The British people routinely violated the lockdown rules, they staged several protests including conspiracy theory demonstrations, BLM anti racist protests and a community demolition of a statue. When I went to the park to exercise I noticed there was large groups of people sitting together on the grass having a meal and sunbathing. This was happening throughout the country and throughout spring. I'm not knocking those people, all I am saying is don't blame the government if there were many Covid19 deaths when you are defying the lockdown requests. 

The good thing is the government doesn't tell people to not drink petrol, otherwise there would be dead bodies on the street farting out LPG. The Brits are stubborn, I can say that because I am British.