What January Means to me

It is February now and the UK has finally left the European Union. It would be nice if the UK does well because then all those people that were saying we are making a mistake every single day can shut up. My Brexit polarity is currently neutral, I don't really care if we remain or leave. I'm just sick of hearing people on radio and TV go on about it. Plus their argument could be turned around, you could say the people that voted to remain didn't know what they were voting for. 

This month was the most stressful month for me out of the last 8 months because I have an infant son and I am worried about the new Corona virus even though it is the gentle cousin of Sars, and I feel like the future is uncertain. I also had to deal with crime against my trade. There are many things I hold back in this blog because it is in the public domain but January was very stressful and I had many difficult challenges. 

The Duke and Duchess of Sussex stepped down from their royal roles this month. I feel like the press took Princes Diana's cane out of the cupboard and used it on Meghan, they scrutinized everything she said and did and it was almost like being back in the 90s again. The Queen has enough on her plate already to deal with, I feel like the queen is another granny to me, I would feel sad to see the end of her rule one day. 

Now I stand here trying to get to the happy zone. The place where I overcome my challenges and have a better life style. I hope that God forgives me for being difficult and questioning everything. 

walking forward

I made it through Jacob's spring, my son was born in the middle of Spring, in the Middle of the Day, In the Middle of Buckinghamshire. A stressful week it was for me. 

I made it through the damp political winter of 2019. If you're confused about the reason for the verdict I would suggest you superimpose the 2016 brexit polarity map over 2019 snap election map, they fit together like a glove on a hand. 

Now the scary January of 2020 has come to an end. Viruses and threats of trade embargoes loom on the horizon.  Will I see clearly when the rain has gone? Will I see all obstacles in my way? Will I see a bright bright sun shiny day? 

I don't know 

Will I leave the gray zone and reach the Happy zone. I don't know, for Jake's sake I hope so. The happy zone (thinking deeply). Feeling free to do your hobbies properly and live without material worries. 

Isaac paradox

When I would read the Bible I would have a dislike for the people written in there because I feel that they are unfair and their nature is so different to mine. One person I didn't like was Isaac, he had twins and he liked one more than the other. He liked Esau more than Jacob and wanted Esau to have all the blessings and Jacobs decedent's to be Esau's servants. This is against my nature because if I had twins I would not have a favourite. I would love both of them the same because they are my children. I would not want one of them to have decendents that are servants for the other kids decendents. 

Also, he was upset that Esau Married a Hittite wife, the Hittites were a tribe that live in Turkey and Syria. He judged Esau's wife before he knew anything about her. That is not fair. There are people like that today, they would make conclusions about people without knowing them. I know that people see me walking past and they would never think I wrote this blog because they think the way I think is different. They judge me without knowing anything about me. 

They think I am obsessed with football and go out binge drinking. The truth is I hate football, I don't go binge drinking. My main drinks are water and coffee. I work hard and I like to read and I'm not violent. I have a head full of questions and machines that don't work. My mind is little world. 

Well, it is written that God resists the proud so God must see these people have a humble heart and he overlooks their flaws. Many of the people in the Bible are very flawed but perhaps they have a good humble heart and are willing to cooperate. 

I don't know... There is so much I don't know. 

A hug for China

Earlier in the month, a gentle cousin of the Sars Corona Virus simply called New Corona virus emerged from Wohan city in China. It has been giving my Brothers and Sisters in the east a hard time. They claim it came from Bats, those creatures are very clean but they get about a lot and pick up all sorts of infections. 

I am very impressed by the robust response from the Chinese people. They literally built an extra hospital to deal with infected in less than a week and mapped the virus genes very quickly. I believe they also managed to quarantine the entire city within a day. I wish them luck to make a vaccine. 

I send them all a hug but only on this blog for now. I already caught the flu and don't want any more viruses. 

A salute and a medal for my Brothers and Sisters in the East.

Virus of January

The Corona virus is going around the world, I think it kills just over 2 percent of the infected hosts. If you knew someone that was killed by a virus and is angry at God then I would like to point something out. 

Viruses keep the world in order. They kill vast swarms of bacteria in the ocean that produce methane and toxic sludge. If there were no viruses, the Earth would turn into a toxic lifeless oven that is a lot like Venus.  I would also like to point out that your life is short, that is they way it was from the beginning. From the day you were born you were given just a brief life that will end and every being in this world dies eventually. I often wonder what is beyond that. Oblivion? Reserection? Punishment? Bliss? I don't know. 

All I know is I try to make every day count. I try to be happy and be grateful. Perhaps this world is just the best possible outcome for an imperfect world, set up to be as happy and loving as possible without being self destructive. I can only ask because I don't have the answers. 

Lemon Valley

In the past I bought a thing called a useless box; it was a box with a mechanical finger that comes out and turns itself off when it is turned on. It eventually broke and became useless at being useless. That is the only double negative I know of that stays negative. 

In my little world there is a place for my broken useless box. It is called Lemon Valley, a place inside my head that I keep machines that don't work. I create machines inside my head then think that they don't work then leave them in Lemon Valley and look at them again to see if they can be modified to work. 

One example is a machine that is supposed to take heat from the air and generate electricity. It works by taking a fluid that has all the oxygen removed from it and iron dissolved in it. The fluid is poured it into a tube lined with magnets. The falling fluid drags the magnetic fields around in a swirling path into copper coils underneath. The fluid itself becomes cooler because the magnetic field restricts the particles movement in the fluid. The cooled fluid creates negative air pressure in the outer pipe and that causes air to rush in, which pushes a turbine that pumps the fluid back up again. The problem is that the energy from the air flowing in would be less than then energy to pump the fluid back up to the top again. To cut a long story short, I am certain it wouldn't work. 

The process of trying to make machines inside my head takes the fire of stress out of my belly because it displaces the bad thoughts. When I was waiting for my son to be born I was very afraid and felt helpless but this process helped me to get through it. That is why I am sharing it with you. This whole blog is a gift from me to humanity because that is my reason for living, it is to give with love to all without expecting anything in return. 

EU rope is cut.

Well, It looks like the United Kingdom of Great Britain will finally leave the European Union. I feel afraid slightly because I don't know what will happen after that. 

I don't know if we will be driven into poverty or grow or stay the same for a while. I have no idea. 

I don't know if everything will be ok for the Brits that are on the continent, I don't know if the Europeans that live in the UK will be ok. I know nothing. 

I don't really think about it much because I have no control over what will happen. You probably know more than me because you are reading this blog after the end of January and beyond. 

The Corona virus is still surging outward to other places and infecting thousands of people. There is so little that I know, I hope they can make a vaccine for it.