Set apart

One thing I have clarity about is that I am very different to most people so all the things I create are not valued by most people, and the things most people like are not valued by me. 

For instance, I am a man but I hate football and find it very boring. I am left handed, most people are right handed. I watch videos that challenge you not to laugh and I win because they are not funny to me, I see someone falling over and then I think that gravity has pulled them down and I don't understand why it is funny. People send me videos of people doing pranks in lifts and I feel sad because I see everyone laughing and I don't find it funny at all. Sometimes I wonder if I even belong on this planet. I don't like star wars, I don't like any of the star wars movies, I don't understand how hundreds of troopers can fail to shoot a small group of people, they hit everything with their Lazer guns except the people they are aiming at. The whole movie franchise makes me sleep. 

That is why my creations are not very popular, because most people are very different to me. But I intend to continue making them because there are people like me in this world but they are minority and I am very patient and I love creating things. 

Even if one in one hundred people like what I do, that is still a lot of people, I will continue to make public things and be patient. I will save a small bottle of whiskey for when my youtube channel has 100 subscribers, there is 67 of them at the moment. 

I am not popular and I'm not bright but I am very patient, that is my best virtue that I have. I won't try to force people to like my creations, I will just leave them in plain sight and wait. 

New creation

Over the last 4 or 5 days I created a short documentary video entirely on my phone for the second time. It is the first time I made such a video on my present phone and I think the microphone on this phone is better than my previous phone. The video is called 5 things that are hidden. 

Alanasis ~ 5 things that are hidden

I used a video editing app called cyberlink director. And I made most of the graphics myself including the drawings. 

I define myself as a boat that is heading for placid waters. A being that likes to have a peaceful existence and I like to take passengers into my little world. I created many things that dilute the poisonous thoughts in this world with better thoughts that are more happy and peaceful. 

If I have to wait for a short time then you will find me making something while I wait. If there is one thing I can be grateful for, it is that I am able to make some things that go around the world. 

The Gray Zone

I gave a name for my lifestyle, I call it the gray zone because I work full time to pay bills and don't have the capacity to do what I want to do. I want to have a man cave for leisure and a workshop to build things in and the time on my hands to be there. However I have enough food to eat and I have a home to live in. That is what the Gray zone is, it is getting by ok. It is being ok and that is it. 

I aim for the Happy Zone. The happy zone is where I do have the capacity to do what I want to do. You don't have to be rich to be in the Happy Zone although it is an effective tool. You just need to find a way to get there. There is also the Golden Zone, this zone is where you don't need to work at all. All of your time is liesure time and you have everything that you need. It is the opposite to the destitution zone, on this zone you live in poverty and don't have enough food to eat. 

So it is like this...

Destitution zone, poverty and hardship

Gray Zone, Being ok but always busy

Happy zone, Freedom for joy 

Golden Zone, Having it made. Everything you want. 

I imagined being in the happy zone and meeting a person that was always in the golden zone and is still unhappy. I would say "hi my brother man, why are you crying?" And he would say money doesn't buy you happyness. Then I would say maybe you are right. Then I would go back into my home skipping with joy because I have a workshop (room) to build things and the time to do it. Then the next day I would come out to the crying golden zone man and say "my brother-man, have a nice cup of coffee, I used ground beans and and syrup and wipe those tears of your Farrari and keep your chin up. Then he would say, "you can afford a better car than a Honda Accord, why don't you get a better car?", and I would say, "What is wrong with a Honda Accord?". I don't need a mega Yacht to be happy, I don't need a supercar, I don't need a gold plated bath tub to be happy. 

I need freedom to do the things that make me happy and that is it. My man cave to play in and my workshop to build things in. That is the Happy Zone. I am fighting to get me and my family into the happy zone, to escape from the gray zone. 

Float it

I mentioned earlier in this blog that there is a place in my head called "Lemon valley" , where I put thought machines that don't work. Well, the most common type of thing you would find there is floating panels that don't float. Allow me to explain. 

I worked out the typical volume of the inside of a glass jar (π r2 * h), it is about one quarter of a cubed meter. I estimated the air inside would weigh about the weight of a plum. If the glass of the jar was just 1 millimeter thick and all the air removed from inside then the jar would weigh less than the air, but the air pressure would smash the thin glass because there is no air inside pushing outwards. While the glass jar is inside a vacuum chamber it is lighter than air and would float in the air if the glass was strong enough, but it isn't. If the glass was normal thickness it would harbour a vacuum without breaking but it would be heavier than the air and wouldn't float. 

To solve this problem I thought of putting a jar in a jar and the outer jar has half air pressure and the inner jar would be a vacuum. In my head this also won't work because as soon as you get enough strength you would be left with a jar that is heavier than air. 

I can tell you there is hundreds of other ways I thought of and they are all in Lemon Valley but some of them may not belong there. I would need to build the rig myself to see. 

This is why I feel angry when rich people say money doesn't buy you happyness. Everything I want to do costs money, space  and time. I don't have money, space or time on my hands to even try to build any of the machines in my head. The freedom to try would make me happy. Even if they didn't work in reality I would be happy and keep trying. 

I am happy by default, it is being trapped in the gray zone that holds back joy. 

Adolf Assassination

If I had created a time machine and assassinated Adolf Hitler before he had become the leader of Germany then perhaps the Holocaust would never happen. But I would still be a murderer, right? 

The problem is if I kill Adolf then the motive to kill him also gets destroyed. If Adolf is dead then he doesn't create the so called final solution and I don't need to make a time machine stop him and then he is free to live and destroy. Then I do go back and then I don't the event becomes like a flickering light that goes on and off continuously for eternity. 

It is very good that I'm not telepathic because people would just walk up to me and tell me to stop thinking, they would say think-up instead of shut up and give me a bottle of vodka to switch off my restless mind. 

Cross rail

I think that building cross rail is a bad idea. Cross rail is a new railway being built in Britain, It goes from reading to shenfield and cuts through London. There is already a railway from reading to London. Why are we building more railways when many of the existing railways still have Diesel trains running on them? Wouldn't it be better to electrify the existing railways fully first? No? 

If you are wondering why the Scots value the EU more than the UK then I would say this is one of those reasons. It is like the north and west side of the island doesn't exist in parliament. Most of the investment in infrastructure is going to Southern England and the rest of the island gets the crumbs left over. The funding is disproportionate yet there is more room for growth in the other parts of Britain. 

If it was my choice, I would build frames above the railway tracks that support solar panels and small compact wind turbines, that would bring down the cost of running the railways because the sunlight shining on the solar panels would contribute to the power of trains and I would make sure that every last bit of tracks are electrified before I build a single railway on the island. There shouldn't still be diesel powered trains running on this island, they are slow to accelerate and can't go as fast as electric trains. Diesel trains are more heavy than electric trains so they put more pressure on the tracks and shorten the lifespan of the tracks more than electric trains I think. 

I get things wrong often but right now that is what I think. I am only writing the truth from my perspective. No facts are on this post just an ordinary man's opinion. 

Lemon Valley

I'm walking through Lemon valley again, a place in my mind where I put thought experiments that I think don't work. I never gave the place a name before because I never wrote about it. If there is a thing or a place inside your head then you don't need to give it a name unless you write about it to an older version of yourself on a public blog that no one has time to read. 

Anyway, there are a few machines in lemon valley that I'm not sure belong there. I need to build them to be sure. The best thing about building a machine as an experiment would be that failure is always an option. Even if it doesn't work then I would gain insight. I need a workshop to try though. I gain from lemon valley because I'm not in control of the world around me but I can escape in this place.. 

There is no people in there, no hate, no lies, no confusion, no chaos, just focused thoughts that come to an end through the atrophy of reality. A gentle flowing place.